I just want to crawl into my bed and die.
I hate everything lately.
Oh and on the bright side I probably have Borderline Personality disorder.
My life just keeps getting better and better.
I spend 80% of my time alone, I have 0 friends, my boyfriend never comes over.
I generally just deserve better from everyone in my life anymore. I just keep getting ignored, so whatever. I’ve been abandon by all my friends, so whatever, who cares. No friends no problems right? Maybe I’m better off alone anyways. I just want to cry. I just really want this fucking empty feeling to go away.
I’m starting to hate being happy, because then when things go to shit again I suffer even more than normal. It hurts a lot more and takes a lot longer to numb it out again so I can try and be happy again. I’m starting to wonder if happy is a real thing or if it’s just something they make up in fairytales so little girls think life is worth living. I think Disney should get sued for false advertising there isn’t always a happy ending. Actually there almost never is.
So fuck it all, gunna go take something to sleep